Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I got a Promotion!!!!! I don't know what I do though...

So I didn't want to say anything before because I didn't want to jinx it, but I was in the process of interviewing for a higher position within my company . I really didn't think I would get it because you know I'm young and shit so I figured they would feel like I needed more development. Nonetheless I put on my gosh darn Suit and tie and my smart man glasses and BEASTED that Interview.....I mean I was spittin them answers out quicker than he could ask them and I could see the look on his face like wow this is coming from him?!

After the interview he told me he would get back with me in two weeks to let me know because there were a lot of other candidates trying for the position. The interview was yesterday and he offered me the position today with a raise, (not enough to make me stay in the tundra but still good) and I move up like 14 floors. so know I'm a Bank Secrecy Act Specialist III (don't that sound Bomb on my resume?!). Don't ask me what exactly I will be doing because I don't know (I got a little confused when the man was explaining the position to me LOL), but this only the beginning to my struggle out of obscurity so keep watching.....

*Song of the moment- Trey Songz: Gotta Go

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Roast beef for lunch = one sleepy Negro

Man I'm at work real wore out. I'm at my desk extremely bored, and just know that I ate this huge ass roast beef dinner for lunch and now I feel like fat ass appetite!

My weekend kinda sucked. I did absolutely not shit....I mean 4 real a person my age in the middle of the summer should do something other than sittin in the house doin things to himself till it hurts. I don't know why I decline all requests to go out... but I'm not bitter I suppose, I'm just not feelin it.

There's this dude that works by me that is somewhat attractive and always seems to be in my face. I wonder if I should investigate but I'm so over trying to figure out people's sexuality so i'll wait till he says something...if he doesn't then oh well.

This ratchett ass girl behind me sent me an e-mail talkin bout she got that wet-wet.....UMMM yea that doesn't sound too appetizing. I feel bad though for letting her give me a ride home and not inviting her up. I know she was a BURNING BITCH when i did that because she was expecting me to invite her up but shit I really just wanted a ride...shit

I have to go to one of my best friend's son B-day party today. I love her son I wish someday I could have one just like him. I bought him a nice yellow and gray polo from Gap Kid. I'm mad I'm daydreaming about the Taco Salad and Cupcakes at my desk while the roast beef is still fresh on my my mom should have whooped my ass for bein so greedy sometimes...

........well let me get back to work on this nice Sunday afternoon..Here's hoping next weekend I actually go out and kick it a lil

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Obscurity: The back story

Disclaimer: This may kinda boring but if it wasn't a little on the dreary blah side then this blog wouldn't be called Obscurity now would it?

Have you ever been at a point in your life where you thought you had it all figured out, but you find out that you are at a dead end and hadn't even realized until then......?

I am originally from milwaukee and was 100 percent sure I wanted to be here and major in history. I wanted to teach or write a book or something. Being here I've had some really good times; I've done fairly well with my grades, met some great individuals, pledged a black greek letter org, and also got some valuable work experience.

About a year ago after I crossed (insert org here) I kind of felt empty...not so much my decision to pledge but just my life and my decision to move here. I had devoted so much attention to other things but had absolutely no personal at all. I mean it was cool to go to all the college parties and all the straight clubs but soon it just got to the point where I was going just for the music (which wasn't anything special). Now I'm not anything thirsty for boys or seeking to be somewhere where i can go boy crazy but its become to the point where now I just work and come home and do nothing. I don't go out or anything because I don't see the point up here its just super wack.

The weather up here is no joke. I mean the winters here are very harsh and its a struggle just to make it. My car has been towed numerous times for bullshit reasons i.e. snow emergency, spring leaf emergency, fall leaf emergency. It has come to the point where I add being towed into my budget. The cost of living is ridiculous.....I was paying way too much for a 1 bedroom for which I didn't even have a full stove or refrigerator.

I am a very focused individual and my priorities are always in order, but I have reached a point where I feel like I'm going towards getting a pointless degree. I work in banking and I am getting major experience and decent pay. I would love to continue in the financial industry and I plan to do so but I wouldn't get paid anymore if I had a history I want a valuable degree but which one? I don't know.......I haven't decided. all of this constantly depresses I travel ALOT mainly to Atlanta (but I go other places too!!!!! I was at sizzle....shit).

So my solution:

I really think I need a change....a drastic change. I need to start fresh because I feel that is what's best for me because if I stay here I will FAIL AT LIFE....I know I will stop doing everything and eventually give up and go sit in a pile of dirty snow until I no longer breathe. I have already started making preparations for this drastic change, actually since January but its been super motion as of 4th of July weekend. I don't really know if this the right decision but I'm just gonna do it because if I fail the tundra will still be here waiting.

So what is this monumental change you ask?

I'm sure its not that hard to figure out so I'll let you guys state the obvious.....and before ya'll do I'm not making this decision because I want to be extra gay and
So here's my sorta deepness.......sorta
* Song playing in background- Teairra Mari: Find My Way Back*

Monday, July 21, 2008

It's Plies BABBBYYYYY!!!!!!

Ok so its definitely hard in every sense of the word being in the tundra without any stimulation mentally or physically. It's days like today that I start to day dream......of Plies mostly......sigh. Now I'm not even into hood Negroes like that but maaaaaaaan he does something to my spirit.....but alas he is out of touch prolly somewhere in Georgia being a goon or whatever he says. So as I sit here fresh from work I think of him and other things.......random things (I did warn you guys about how random I was LOL).

  • Ok so why did I just purchase my plane ticket to Atlanta for labor day weekend Just because I felt like it?

  • Shutter Glasses need to go back to the pits of hell from which they came.

  • Why is this my fourth trip to Atlanta in one year?

  • I'm still livid that ASIID was eliminated from ABDC

  • Has anyone heard Ciara's song High Price?.....It's the shizz.

  • Man Plies can get it get it get it on the floor

  • I think I left my iron on all day.....when will I learn from my mistakes.

  • I still don't feel like gettin deep yet on here is that a bad sign?.....hmmm

  • I think I may have some crushes on some blog people already.....such a shame

* song playing in background- Plies: Excuse my hands*

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Oh Shizz That Damn Cherry!

Wow it looks like I finally got the nuts to finally start this blogging shin dig. I'm so late for just starting this but do to recent events I am forced by something deep inside to express. SO HERE IT IS.......THIS PLACE I CAll OBSCURITY (more on that later...lets not get too deep prematurely I don't want to pull a muscle....shit).

I really don't know if anyone will ever read this but this is my personal therapy for now and welcome all who want to witness this new journey with me mmmk. some initial stuff about me:

  • I currently reside in Minneapolis (Obscurity!!!!).

  • I hate it here...I Equate it to living in a tundra.

  • I'm 21 and I believe I'm way beyond that mentally...way behind it facially.LOL

  • I'm chocolate in that late Saturday night craving sort of way

  • I attend the University of Minnesota BOOOO!!!! (This is gonna change soon more on that Later....again the muscle).

  • I'm random in that yea let's keep walking past the crazies sort of way (I'm Playing...but only jus a lil).